Day Twenty-Six
I hate this. I hate it all. I considered just writing that today, its a true reflection on how I am feeling. My emotions and feeling are on this constant roller coaster filled with highs and lows never settling, and not just by the day but sometimes by the hour, currently I am at a low and it feels real low. It started OK, I took Ryan to his first Radiation appointment, it is about a 30 minute drive each way and his treatment is 15 minutes long, I am not allowed back there. I have been told he lays down and has this special plastic mask put on his face and locked in place so he cannot move as they radiate his brain. He said it doesn't hurt. so that is a plus. Fun fact 'Radiation prepares the cancer for Chemo, meaning it bugs the cancer so the chemo is more effective'. Following this we came home and Ryan went to nap.. but found the XBOX instead and opted to do that for a couple hours, then he napped for real when I laid down and all but passed out, I must be depressed righ