Day Fifty-Five
Today has felt rough. Nothing new is happening I am just working on processing what our kids had to say yesterday. I didn't help them or proof read anything, I wanted their organic feelings and I think I got that. I am struggling with it all. We didn't go to radiation treatment today and also don't have chemotherapy tonight, something about needing a day rest so tomorrow they can begin the more intense sessions. I am excited to be on the down slope but also worried about what it will do to Ryan. I guess we will just see. Ryan still has that large sunburned area on his forehead it is looking worse but he said it isn't hurting so I guess we will survive it. Being in my position is rough, and when I think I am pulling it together and doing my best I realize how short I am falling. Bridger's message crushed me last night. He feels alone. How do i fix that? I try to talk to him and give him time but clearly I am not doing well enough. He said he wants to know the '