Day Thirty-Two

 Its crazy that every day seems to bleed into the next, not much interesting is really happening, I keep posting each day because I said I would. I made a goal to keep up to date with this blog. I cannot say I love every day, or that I know what to write. Today is such a day.

It feels normal now, to have Ryan constantly in pain and discomfort. Today it has really hit home how his tastes have changed. Things he has always loved he now cannot stand.  For example, he has always loved sugary cereal and tres leches cake. Both are to sugary now and make him cringe.  You might think this makes him just want salty or savory items this is also not the case, he used to love hot pockets and pizza and he now isn't a fan. 

After 15 years together I feel like I am going back to learning what his favorite foods are lol. Its not as fun as I would have thought, because now I have 6 picky eaters in my home. Thank goodness for Amy and her willingness to join me in eating all that the others reject. This is not that the foods are not amazing its that if its not drowning in syrup or milk the kids are less excited and Ryan is a jumble of culinary confusion. Ryan will try things, even request specific foods unfortunately like the children after a couple bites he also scrunches up his nose and says 'I like it but I don't want any more'. Now if you know Ryan you know he loved to eat, and in our home he was the clean up crew eating all that the kids wouldn't. Its a sad day that he isn't eating his share.

I learned to love cooking and baking during our marriage, I haven't needed to cook due to the kindness of others bringing or having food delivered. I may start up again soon just for the therapeutic nature of baking, but until then... 

If you brought or delivered anything to us please know we are so grateful, and it truly has been a blessing to our family. xoxo