Day Forty-Seven

I keep staring at this screen and nothing is coming to mind to write about. How is that possible with so much going on in my mind all the time I cannot think of anything? What a strange thing. 

Today I feel grateful to have family to let my kids come play and spend time with cousins. I feel so grateful for neighbors that bring us food and remind us that we are not alone. I feel grateful for friends who reach out and show support. For my sister living with us and keeping my house put together and keep me laughing and smiling. And for my husband that shows he loves me each day.

Most of all I am so grateful that I dont have to fake it. So many times in my life I have felt one way and faked like I felt the other. I feel sad that I and so many need to pretend they are ok or that they are living a perfect life. What a waste, I hope to just live everyday true to how I really feel and what I really think. Life really is too short to do anything else. And generally I find people are quite understanding and those that arent.. are ignorant to real life.

I spent today thinking about plans to get out and relax, it was nice to look forward to something enjoyable, a way to get away and find some peace and calm. We live in a beautiful world and as much as we have seen there is so much that we haven't.  And Ryan is a big fan of nature so we will take some time to see it and enjoy what we can.